Friday, September 14, 2007
Well, wanna share with u guys tat i had passed all my modules for year 2 semster 1.. I should be happy for that, but indeed i was sad.. My "him" unable to share my happiness with me.. i actually tot of celebrating with him next week but now..
He ask to part with me for some time, as he say he not mature enough for work and relationship. He say he not mature enough for now yet, wan to give us some time.. He wan to concentrate on his career now before he can really go into a relationship. He need to change himself first..if we got together he cant change.. I really sad tat he say the feelings started to fade cos he not mature enough.. He mean let's part for some time..He need to be alone or he will really change his feelings towards me..As he say his feelings started to fade that's why he need to b alone if could amend it if not it be worst.. He very stress at work.. I'm sorry that i keep questioning him, as he told me he already very stress after been transfer his workplace and he got alot of things to do and the place is very far. He said let fate decide, he will try his best to change as in be mature enough in work and relationship.. He juz wanna be alone for some time..
I really love him alot, and when i received his sms in the morning juz now, it really make me sad and i cried till my eyes swollen.. I was having a bad headache and fever then i go see doc so i never go work today... And get some sleeping pills in case i cant get myself to sleep as i know myself well that i will be thinking alot.. I really never expect him to change anything becos of me, as i know he already quite mature for me in his age.. Doesnt mean as the age grows old, the thinking will be mature..it have to depends on yourself on how u manage your stuff and etc.. I dun think i mature enough, i can say i still quite childish at times.. I just can say i can wait for him to come back to me ... though its takes maybe a month or 2... I will Wait..Good thing is worth to wait.. No matter wat i had say to him, he just need to be alone.. i will not stress him juz have to wait for him to be with me again.. I really hope it wont takes much time.. It is a painful process for me now, as i cant have him beside me at the moment.. Indeed i hurt alot, when my loved ones say that to me as he treat me good enough that i cant expect more than tat.. He is good to me in all ways.. As i never expect that much..He treat me good and love me thats all..
Future it needs 2 persons to strive together.. And not the person alone.. I willing to strive hard together with him for our future.. I know he still care for me and he juz need to be alone for the time being.. I will not stress ya, as i know u already very stress in your work le.. I promise ya to take good care of myself and hope ya will take care of yourself.. I will still call ya at times to call ya wake up, i do it at my own willingness as i dun wan ya to be late for work.. And Do remember to take your meals if not u will get gastric ok.. Hope to meet up with ya next week when ya having your off day.. I dun wan ya to avoid me or wat becos of tis matter.. Go out together at least can relax abit from work.. Maybe ya dun have off day for tis week and your work schedule very busy and have made u very tired.. I able to understand.. Hope i will not wait for so long.. He knows how i feel for him.. Though u had told me all the promises that u will love me always and cherish me n etc.. I hope u will really do that..haiz.. Wat's happen already happen, now have to wait and give him some time..
Though i really dun have the appetite to eat and unable to sleep, and dun have any mood to do anything.. i will see how izzit..hope my mood will be better after few days.. Been eating medicine juz now, but still cant get to sleep.. Maybe later take some sleeping pills if possible ba..
I have to thanks Angeline, richard, Wenzhao,Hanxiang, Weileong, meiling, ruiying, yuting, my 2 cousins and some which i never name.. REally have to thanks u guys for giving me advice and listen to my problems, beside me all these while of wat happen to me.. i appreciate it.. Hope my dreams will come true soon..
Maybe u are seeing my blog, hope u know wat i thinking.. and i love u alots, i will miss ya while u not beside me..
Will update again when i got the mood..
Take care..
He ask to part with me for some time, as he say he not mature enough for work and relationship. He say he not mature enough for now yet, wan to give us some time.. He wan to concentrate on his career now before he can really go into a relationship. He need to change himself first..if we got together he cant change.. I really sad tat he say the feelings started to fade cos he not mature enough.. He mean let's part for some time..He need to be alone or he will really change his feelings towards me..As he say his feelings started to fade that's why he need to b alone if could amend it if not it be worst.. He very stress at work.. I'm sorry that i keep questioning him, as he told me he already very stress after been transfer his workplace and he got alot of things to do and the place is very far. He said let fate decide, he will try his best to change as in be mature enough in work and relationship.. He juz wanna be alone for some time..
I really love him alot, and when i received his sms in the morning juz now, it really make me sad and i cried till my eyes swollen.. I was having a bad headache and fever then i go see doc so i never go work today... And get some sleeping pills in case i cant get myself to sleep as i know myself well that i will be thinking alot.. I really never expect him to change anything becos of me, as i know he already quite mature for me in his age.. Doesnt mean as the age grows old, the thinking will be mature..it have to depends on yourself on how u manage your stuff and etc.. I dun think i mature enough, i can say i still quite childish at times.. I just can say i can wait for him to come back to me ... though its takes maybe a month or 2... I will Wait..Good thing is worth to wait.. No matter wat i had say to him, he just need to be alone.. i will not stress him juz have to wait for him to be with me again.. I really hope it wont takes much time.. It is a painful process for me now, as i cant have him beside me at the moment.. Indeed i hurt alot, when my loved ones say that to me as he treat me good enough that i cant expect more than tat.. He is good to me in all ways.. As i never expect that much..He treat me good and love me thats all..
Future it needs 2 persons to strive together.. And not the person alone.. I willing to strive hard together with him for our future.. I know he still care for me and he juz need to be alone for the time being.. I will not stress ya, as i know u already very stress in your work le.. I promise ya to take good care of myself and hope ya will take care of yourself.. I will still call ya at times to call ya wake up, i do it at my own willingness as i dun wan ya to be late for work.. And Do remember to take your meals if not u will get gastric ok.. Hope to meet up with ya next week when ya having your off day.. I dun wan ya to avoid me or wat becos of tis matter.. Go out together at least can relax abit from work.. Maybe ya dun have off day for tis week and your work schedule very busy and have made u very tired.. I able to understand.. Hope i will not wait for so long.. He knows how i feel for him.. Though u had told me all the promises that u will love me always and cherish me n etc.. I hope u will really do that..haiz.. Wat's happen already happen, now have to wait and give him some time..
Though i really dun have the appetite to eat and unable to sleep, and dun have any mood to do anything.. i will see how izzit..hope my mood will be better after few days.. Been eating medicine juz now, but still cant get to sleep.. Maybe later take some sleeping pills if possible ba..
I have to thanks Angeline, richard, Wenzhao,Hanxiang, Weileong, meiling, ruiying, yuting, my 2 cousins and some which i never name.. REally have to thanks u guys for giving me advice and listen to my problems, beside me all these while of wat happen to me.. i appreciate it.. Hope my dreams will come true soon..
Maybe u are seeing my blog, hope u know wat i thinking.. and i love u alots, i will miss ya while u not beside me..
Will update again when i got the mood..
Take care..
this heart of mine was broken at 9/14/2007 04:57:00 PM
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