Saturday, September 29, 2007
Well, today is my last day of work and my contracts finally ends.. Hmm, went out juz now till 11 plus then reach home.. Alot of things happen one after the other, its really makes me lost sometimes..
Anyway for my previous entries, i might be quite harsh in some words or wat..But its hurt me lots so tat i will said all those things..As be it is a chinese or philipines gal.. Anyway he got told me is his collegue but is not working at the outlet he currently working le.. He dun even know they will be together as they hardly see each other but they just sms and chat on the phone..But do u think tis type of relationship will last? Though i can say its difficult to maintain a relationship like tat as in seldom see each other, and dun even know wat the other party was doing..Maybe chat on the phone and sms can have feelings for each other..But its like it wont last as dun have any bond in btw and the feelings will started to fade as it goes by, i had experience it before once and so do my frens did experience it before..Its quite difficult to work it out..as i also think tat they know each other not long enough but can have feelings for each other, tat's weird, though they spend maybe a week or so during work time..AS they start to understand each other more when they work together than i do..
But to me, having feelings for another person within a short period, as i think its not love, its lust..As u understand each other, and tends to talk alot of stuff and slowly got feelings..Though last time i got have tis matter before but after a while i think tat its like a lust and not love..As lust can be easily faded but love is not..
Well, i wan to thanks him for giving me the happy memories for the past 6 months when we together.. And really loves and enjoy being with him.. Though is short, but i will keep it in my memories since it cant be retrieve back it no matter how much i try..
I will be go shopping and spend as much as i can..
Here is my wishlist:
-Do manicure
-Dye and highlight my hair
-Buy clothes and etc..
Anyway for my previous entries, i might be quite harsh in some words or wat..But its hurt me lots so tat i will said all those things..As be it is a chinese or philipines gal.. Anyway he got told me is his collegue but is not working at the outlet he currently working le.. He dun even know they will be together as they hardly see each other but they just sms and chat on the phone..But do u think tis type of relationship will last? Though i can say its difficult to maintain a relationship like tat as in seldom see each other, and dun even know wat the other party was doing..Maybe chat on the phone and sms can have feelings for each other..But its like it wont last as dun have any bond in btw and the feelings will started to fade as it goes by, i had experience it before once and so do my frens did experience it before..Its quite difficult to work it out..as i also think tat they know each other not long enough but can have feelings for each other, tat's weird, though they spend maybe a week or so during work time..AS they start to understand each other more when they work together than i do..
But to me, having feelings for another person within a short period, as i think its not love, its lust..As u understand each other, and tends to talk alot of stuff and slowly got feelings..Though last time i got have tis matter before but after a while i think tat its like a lust and not love..As lust can be easily faded but love is not..
Well, i wan to thanks him for giving me the happy memories for the past 6 months when we together.. And really loves and enjoy being with him.. Though is short, but i will keep it in my memories since it cant be retrieve back it no matter how much i try..
And also need to thanks his mum to dote on me, try to talk to me and etc.. Though we can get along well, and we chat alot of stuff..Sometimes we even chat on some personal stuff and etc..Really glad to have her as my fren, though i and him not together anymore..
But really need to thanks my frens for all the advice and be my listening ear for the past few days or so..And also hanxiang for giving me support and etc.. I'm really appreciate it.. Time will prove everything..
Though being single maybe out of a sudden i cant accept it..But i will try..As time can heal the wound.. As now i dun wish to have any relationship right now..Its not the right time... I think tat someone is reading tis, but seriously i dun wan to take it as a subtitute of "him".. As i dun wish to make it so complicated and its will be more hurt after all.. Alot of things is unable to explain as i now still quite lost in certain things.. Which only some of them know wat is it ba..I will be go shopping and spend as much as i can..
Here is my wishlist:
-Do manicure
-Dye and highlight my hair
-Buy clothes and etc..
Done and out!!
take care peeps=)
this heart of mine was broken at 9/29/2007 02:31:00 AM
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