Sunday, September 16, 2007
Well, its been around 3 days when he part with me.. Though he still got sms me..but i tihnk i will not sms him tat often as last time..let him to be alone for awhile.. Hmm.. I was shocked when his mum called me yesterday.. i dunno how to react when she called me.. As in i know he wont tell him wat happen btw us.. She called juz wan to know wat really happen.. I got tot of whether should i pick up the call.. I din really say much..Cos i know he dun wan to let his mum worry about us..
My sickness is back again..i think having low blood or wat.. as i felt giddy at times or wat..And my back near my neck is quite pain..After eating medicine is still the same..Maybe will go change the medicine to more strong type.. or If it continues, i think need to have a injection or wat..Tml still have to work and i have to tolerate the pain at my back..i cant back out as i had sign the contract till 28 sept.. Dun really have the appetite to eat and never sleep well for the past few days..I have lost some weight when i go to see doctor..haiz..Dunno izzit good or bad.. I have been thinking alot these days..why these happen to me when he is not beside me.. I have promise him to take care of myself while he is not beside me for the time being..
Hmm.. as i think do i really have to change the attitude of treating guys good.. As i think when i treat someone good or pampered them. They will say i treat them good till... ACtually treat them good, they should cherish u and to build more stronger relationship than before.. I think i might try not to listen too much promises.. See how is it goes ba..i really dunno wat should i do also..
Sometimes i know something is not right..but he still say i thinkin too much..I will think more of negatives instead of postives.. I dun wan to be hurt so deep.. As its really a painful process, as it will make me to lose appetite, no mood of doing anything, even going out or wat..
Gonna go and have a rest.. REally cant tahan the pain at my back..Arghh...
Update again..!!
Done and out~
My sickness is back again..i think having low blood or wat.. as i felt giddy at times or wat..And my back near my neck is quite pain..After eating medicine is still the same..Maybe will go change the medicine to more strong type.. or If it continues, i think need to have a injection or wat..Tml still have to work and i have to tolerate the pain at my back..i cant back out as i had sign the contract till 28 sept.. Dun really have the appetite to eat and never sleep well for the past few days..I have lost some weight when i go to see doctor..haiz..Dunno izzit good or bad.. I have been thinking alot these days..why these happen to me when he is not beside me.. I have promise him to take care of myself while he is not beside me for the time being..
Hmm.. as i think do i really have to change the attitude of treating guys good.. As i think when i treat someone good or pampered them. They will say i treat them good till... ACtually treat them good, they should cherish u and to build more stronger relationship than before.. I think i might try not to listen too much promises.. See how is it goes ba..i really dunno wat should i do also..
Sometimes i know something is not right..but he still say i thinkin too much..I will think more of negatives instead of postives.. I dun wan to be hurt so deep.. As its really a painful process, as it will make me to lose appetite, no mood of doing anything, even going out or wat..
Gonna go and have a rest.. REally cant tahan the pain at my back..Arghh...
Update again..!!
Done and out~
this heart of mine was broken at 9/16/2007 02:50:00 PM
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