Friday, September 21, 2007
Well, have a good talk with him few days ago.. Hmm, as wat i can say i wont treat any guys good anymore..Its a mistake for me for treating them good..As i have put abit more attention and care on them as compared to frens.. As he say i will give wat he say, not stuborn enough, dun have own character and soft-hearted...So he dun cherish me in a way i treat him too good..Hmm, wat i can say is if i able to do within my limits i will do it no matter it is bf or friend..As i will buy any thing for him if he wants it, or give him a call to wake up for work.. As i did it for my good frens before..I did it for my frens everyday when he wan me to call him to wake up if not he will be late for school and etc.. I care for frens not only bf.. ACtually when treat you treat your partner good, at least should cherish him..And he say he is the opposite..The more i treat him good, he seems like dun have much pride..He keep saying he treat me not good..In my perspective, if i think he treat me not good, i will consider and say to him and may it be quarrel with him.. As he know wat type of idea guys i like when we not together yet.. I did have my stuborness and at times will be hard hearted it really depends on wat matters.. My character is like tat, if a person treat me good, i will treat them good in return..
As he say his feelings started to fade, its not tat strong..As feelings can be nurture when we together, as wat he told me before we together... And i ask for a second chance and he insist not to give and say will hurt me again if he try.. As he dun wan me to get hurt.. He know the same problem will occur again.. If u cherish and love the person, at least give a second chance, and amend it since we know wat happen and work on it and not just give up so easily.. To give each other a chance to work on our problems..AS to think of my past relationships, He is the only one i did have think and plan of my future.. He treat me good, be it i know he sometimes he kept inside in his heart.. As words are kept in his heart and never show it.. I did feel it.. for example, he know i wan perfume, and its quite expensive..I told him consider it then see how again.. Then while i was in the toilet, he went to buy it for me and put in the bag which later i found it when it is quite heavy.. Its really makes me quite touched on wat he did for me..
He say 6 months together, is not tat long, but why i cant give up and put in all my love in it.. As in a relationship, together is try to put all the effort and love in and makes the relationship works.. As what he told me to believe in him and he will cherish me, love me always, he believe tis time he wont make any wrong choice, and i'm the one he could love ever..AFter so much of promises or his love, i try to put in abit more effort in the relationship.. As i know when ya treat guys not good, he will say why u like tat, never treat the relationship seriously or wat.. After of wat he say the promises or his love in his heart, i try my best to believe in him and he try ways to make me happy, and say he will hold tight me and give me the happiness i want.. He did gave me the happiness i want, as being with him makes me happy and together with him got a secure feelings..And he did regret that he told me all these promises and never do it.. Its depends on whether u wan to give urself and me a chance to be together and work it out.. Cos i can say tat i'm really need the chance as it is if never give me the chance, it will make me more hurt.. At least got give it a try to make the relationship works and not just end it like tat..
As about his work, i know he say he now think of the future career, as he thinks that now his career is not good in future..May it be whether not good, at least u try your best and strive hard to achieve wat u wan in the future.. As he say he dun have time to acc me as he is busy with work and i'm studying..It actually need to compromise..As we did say no matter how busy, we try to make ourself free to meet up be it a dinner or movies.. As i know it is hard on him to work for so long hours.. I did understand so sometimes will go find him at his place and let him rest more before we going out.. As sometimes it have to give and take in a relationship..
As he say wan to be fren first then see how.. Then he say he still will care for me, but the care for fren is till certain extent not like bf.. Bf it will gives more attention and to the more extent that wat a bf can do.. He say its around the same.. I keep saying its totally not the same..
I argue with him when he say on his work.. Then yet he say i argue with him..is like he say i not stuborn enough..And as i really say it depends on wat matters so i will be stuborn.. Then after that we have some donuts..
Then after that i dunno why i cant control myself and stress too, i do some things that i dunno wat i'm doing.. Next morning, when i wake up, i wrote on a small paper around 3 pages long, i know he did read wat i write, while after he goin to bathe and prepare himself going for interview, i saw a purple box in his table..Then i ask him he say he take it when pple leave it there when they having event at his workplace..So i say, i dun think so, it muz be give it to someone else.. Then when he taking his wallet, i go and grab him from his back and hold him tightly and i start crying.. And say alot of things.. I keep wan him to give me a second chance and i say alot of things till i really cant control and cry non-stop till around 30mins.. Then he say give him time and ask me dun like tat..Can see tat his face is like gonna drop tears and dunno wat to do When i hold him and grab his clothes..
After that i have to let him go for his interview as he is going to be late.. So after that i msg him i bought a gift for him and it will be my last gift..And he say no matter wat he do, it wont be able to cure my pain..How he wonder he is the one suffering and not me.. And ask me to accept the gift necklace which i find it myself..He say he really never intend to give it to someone else..TAt's for me..I really very touched and gonna cry when i saw tat msg..
And at first i say why is the last gift..? and is it for break up or wat..He say nope..He never say tat.. The gift is no other meaning, is juz wan to give it to me..Then i say tat means he will not give me another chance..He say give him time.. I say hope we can maintain our relationship and nurture our feelings..He say ok.. As i know he still care for me when he msg me where am i and ask me to msg him when i reached home and etc..
Hmm.. I will understand him..So hope he understand me as well..i'm hope we really have a second chance together.. I will wait for him and give him time.. Time will prove everything.. Its worth it..
Will update again..When i got the mood..
Take care peeps..
As he say his feelings started to fade, its not tat strong..As feelings can be nurture when we together, as wat he told me before we together... And i ask for a second chance and he insist not to give and say will hurt me again if he try.. As he dun wan me to get hurt.. He know the same problem will occur again.. If u cherish and love the person, at least give a second chance, and amend it since we know wat happen and work on it and not just give up so easily.. To give each other a chance to work on our problems..AS to think of my past relationships, He is the only one i did have think and plan of my future.. He treat me good, be it i know he sometimes he kept inside in his heart.. As words are kept in his heart and never show it.. I did feel it.. for example, he know i wan perfume, and its quite expensive..I told him consider it then see how again.. Then while i was in the toilet, he went to buy it for me and put in the bag which later i found it when it is quite heavy.. Its really makes me quite touched on wat he did for me..
He say 6 months together, is not tat long, but why i cant give up and put in all my love in it.. As in a relationship, together is try to put all the effort and love in and makes the relationship works.. As what he told me to believe in him and he will cherish me, love me always, he believe tis time he wont make any wrong choice, and i'm the one he could love ever..AFter so much of promises or his love, i try to put in abit more effort in the relationship.. As i know when ya treat guys not good, he will say why u like tat, never treat the relationship seriously or wat.. After of wat he say the promises or his love in his heart, i try my best to believe in him and he try ways to make me happy, and say he will hold tight me and give me the happiness i want.. He did gave me the happiness i want, as being with him makes me happy and together with him got a secure feelings..And he did regret that he told me all these promises and never do it.. Its depends on whether u wan to give urself and me a chance to be together and work it out.. Cos i can say tat i'm really need the chance as it is if never give me the chance, it will make me more hurt.. At least got give it a try to make the relationship works and not just end it like tat..
As about his work, i know he say he now think of the future career, as he thinks that now his career is not good in future..May it be whether not good, at least u try your best and strive hard to achieve wat u wan in the future.. As he say he dun have time to acc me as he is busy with work and i'm studying..It actually need to compromise..As we did say no matter how busy, we try to make ourself free to meet up be it a dinner or movies.. As i know it is hard on him to work for so long hours.. I did understand so sometimes will go find him at his place and let him rest more before we going out.. As sometimes it have to give and take in a relationship..
As he say wan to be fren first then see how.. Then he say he still will care for me, but the care for fren is till certain extent not like bf.. Bf it will gives more attention and to the more extent that wat a bf can do.. He say its around the same.. I keep saying its totally not the same..
I argue with him when he say on his work.. Then yet he say i argue with him..is like he say i not stuborn enough..And as i really say it depends on wat matters so i will be stuborn.. Then after that we have some donuts..
Then after that i dunno why i cant control myself and stress too, i do some things that i dunno wat i'm doing.. Next morning, when i wake up, i wrote on a small paper around 3 pages long, i know he did read wat i write, while after he goin to bathe and prepare himself going for interview, i saw a purple box in his table..Then i ask him he say he take it when pple leave it there when they having event at his workplace..So i say, i dun think so, it muz be give it to someone else.. Then when he taking his wallet, i go and grab him from his back and hold him tightly and i start crying.. And say alot of things.. I keep wan him to give me a second chance and i say alot of things till i really cant control and cry non-stop till around 30mins.. Then he say give him time and ask me dun like tat..Can see tat his face is like gonna drop tears and dunno wat to do When i hold him and grab his clothes..
After that i have to let him go for his interview as he is going to be late.. So after that i msg him i bought a gift for him and it will be my last gift..And he say no matter wat he do, it wont be able to cure my pain..How he wonder he is the one suffering and not me.. And ask me to accept the gift necklace which i find it myself..He say he really never intend to give it to someone else..TAt's for me..I really very touched and gonna cry when i saw tat msg..
And at first i say why is the last gift..? and is it for break up or wat..He say nope..He never say tat.. The gift is no other meaning, is juz wan to give it to me..Then i say tat means he will not give me another chance..He say give him time.. I say hope we can maintain our relationship and nurture our feelings..He say ok.. As i know he still care for me when he msg me where am i and ask me to msg him when i reached home and etc..
Hmm.. I will understand him..So hope he understand me as well..i'm hope we really have a second chance together.. I will wait for him and give him time.. Time will prove everything.. Its worth it..
Will update again..When i got the mood..
Take care peeps..
this heart of mine was broken at 9/21/2007 12:21:00 PM
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