Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Hmm.. i took off today again..From mon to wed for tis week..As somehow i dun have appetite to eat, and when i want to eat i got the feeling of vomitting and i have lose weight from 42 to 39 now..Its looks like can makes me lose weight since i'm quite fat..
Its like totally no mood to do anything, no appetite no matter who ask me to eat, just eat a few bites then dun wan to eat le.. This time, i dunno i need how much time to heal my wound..Last time it takes me a year to do tat.. Its really a painful process for me..
Some of my frens give me advice, and told me all those things tat not worth it..But to me, he is indeed a good bf for me all these while.. I never think tat he is not good to me or wat.. Is tt i'm not good tat dunno how to understand him, care for him and dunno how to capture his heart..So it will happen to me...
i'm really gave hope on guys and dun wan to listen to any guys anymore..Its makes me hurt again and again..
This time still got 3rd party.. And somemore is not a chinese.. And i say izzit the gal tempted him..he say she didnt..he is the one..Is like wat the hell..I have sixth sense tat cos they work together in the same place and they know each other more, and i try to understand him as we seldom meet up..At most is one week once, i dun even complain as he is busy working and i understand that.. And e gal understand him not like me.. And i can say tat she is the one who behind it as he will tell her wat happen btw us, then e gal somehow come in btw us..Give him more care,understand him, treat him good and etc.. Being a 3rd party do u think is good.. Its really up to no good..Since she win now as she is very happy of wat she had did btw us..Anyway it wont last long so i had told him i wont give him my wishes even though they together anot.. its juz matter of time..Time will prove everything.. And hope he dun ever regret from making tis decision since he wan to insist not to give another chance..I wont beg as it will make me more as a loser..
And he had say he is sorry and its hard for me.. As i can think he is a bad person or watever.. Becos he let me down.. Anyway no matter how many sorry he said, it really hurt me lots till cant even describe.. SAy is easier than done.. As 6 months to him is short, ok since he said tat, wat can i said.. Since we can be frens, so be it.. I juz hope he will msg me and reply me as wat he had said last week..
Its like totally no mood to do anything, no appetite no matter who ask me to eat, just eat a few bites then dun wan to eat le.. This time, i dunno i need how much time to heal my wound..Last time it takes me a year to do tat.. Its really a painful process for me..
Some of my frens give me advice, and told me all those things tat not worth it..But to me, he is indeed a good bf for me all these while.. I never think tat he is not good to me or wat.. Is tt i'm not good tat dunno how to understand him, care for him and dunno how to capture his heart..So it will happen to me...
i'm really gave hope on guys and dun wan to listen to any guys anymore..Its makes me hurt again and again..
This time still got 3rd party.. And somemore is not a chinese.. And i say izzit the gal tempted him..he say she didnt..he is the one..Is like wat the hell..I have sixth sense tat cos they work together in the same place and they know each other more, and i try to understand him as we seldom meet up..At most is one week once, i dun even complain as he is busy working and i understand that.. And e gal understand him not like me.. And i can say tat she is the one who behind it as he will tell her wat happen btw us, then e gal somehow come in btw us..Give him more care,understand him, treat him good and etc.. Being a 3rd party do u think is good.. Its really up to no good..Since she win now as she is very happy of wat she had did btw us..Anyway it wont last long so i had told him i wont give him my wishes even though they together anot.. its juz matter of time..Time will prove everything.. And hope he dun ever regret from making tis decision since he wan to insist not to give another chance..I wont beg as it will make me more as a loser..
And he had say he is sorry and its hard for me.. As i can think he is a bad person or watever.. Becos he let me down.. Anyway no matter how many sorry he said, it really hurt me lots till cant even describe.. SAy is easier than done.. As 6 months to him is short, ok since he said tat, wat can i said.. Since we can be frens, so be it.. I juz hope he will msg me and reply me as wat he had said last week..
this heart of mine was broken at 9/26/2007 01:00:00 PM
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